Life is... I don't know. I know my life is meaningful, I know I can make something of it. I know I have God. I know I'm going to heaven. I know that I'm talented. I know I can do a lot of things. I know a lot of things. The only thing I don't know is the inside of people's minds! It's hard to connect with someone when they're over five-hundred miles away.

I have no problems. I don't have any relational problems. It's someone else. She's confused, and I'm confused with her. If I was just with her when everything happened, then I might have a better chance of making her feel better. If I was with her, then I might be able to hold her in my arms and make everything just the least bit better. I want to whisper in her ear that I love her and that I'll always be there for her. I'm sick of having only technology to keep us together. I love it for the fact that it is keeping us together, but I hate it for the fact that it's the only thing keeping us together.

She doesn't know if she can hold out for two months. I'm scared for her, and I need to pray with all of my heart. I wish I could keep her safe, but I don't even know if I can. Life is confusing. Like that famous quote, "Life is like a box of chocolates." Corny, yes, but when it's in use then it's super useful. You seriously don't know what is going to be thrown at you. Life is a surprise, but you have to grasp it by the horns and divert its blow as best as you can.